If this year has taught me anything, it’s that a lot of messed up stuff happens in the world. That, and I need to pay more attention to my emotions.
Children are not born knowing anything, so there’s a point in our life where we first learn about death. At some point we discover racism, classism, the Second World War… we steadily peel away layers of childlike naïveté. In that sense, I was your average child skipping through my early years, and now I’m a stressed student a couple weeks away from exams. There’s a joke here, which would go something like ‘exams, a greater hardship than all of the above,’ which I won’t make. (At least, not directly.) On a global scale, there are things worthy of a lot more gravity than exams.
There’s a problem: I care about my small-scale exams, relationships and word counts, yet discrimination, climate change and the ever-present threat of omnicidal A.I. deserve orders of magnitude more respect. Just how much am I meant to care about those?
We have finite thoughts per day, so there’s a limit to how much we can care about. Ayn Rand would tell you to care about your own life, and let the weakminded succumb to compassion. Karl Marx would tell you to forget about your own ambitions, because once you overcome capitalism then individual lives will sort themselves out on their own. Any sane philosopher (as oxymoronic as that seems) would probably try to reconcile both of those into one firm but generally applicable theory.
My first thought is to figure out what that theory would look like, but instead I’ll listen to my heart. I don’t like any of those three perspectives. What makes philosophers so sure that there is some optimum way to divide your time and energy? There are no right answers for how to live your life, and no wrong ones. That’s liberating — and it makes for one less question to stress about.
Image from a Lion King colouring book in the Arts Scholars room.
I loved this! The way it’s written is fluid and honest, and you’ve covered such a relatable subject in an eloquent but simplified manner – it felt conversational. Thanks!
This was such a refreshing post, Gali. I completely agree – while reading the works of great thinkers and philosophers can make positive contributions to your thought processes, sometimes it feels overwhelming or imposing. I also think we should retain something of our ‘inner child’ as we navigate all the hurdles adulthood throws our way. But being a student is also such a joy! I have to remind myself that I love what I’m studying, and try not to let ‘word limits and deadlines’ kill my passion for these interests, nor let me forget why I started out here in the first place. One of my law lecturers told us to whistle while we get ready on the day of our exam, and think of it as the perfect opportunity to apply all we’ve learned. Life is so exciting and we have the rest of it to keep applying and testing everything we are being told today (though I say this running off 4 hours of sleep, having just handed in my last essay of the year). Thank you for you words – I will try to keep them in my back pocket 🙂
That’s a useful perspective I hadn’t put much thought into. I’m going to co-opt part of it for the moment: I’m doing the courses I am because they are interesting, and I worry about them because I think my worry will help me do them better. The end goal isn’t to do well, it’s to be happy, and I can get to that by learning my chosen subjects well. Now, if I apply the same standard to broader issues, I want to be a better person because a better world will make me happy, and I can achieve that by worrying — but not worrying too much.
Drat, I promised myself I wouldn’t try to build some philosophical framework for how best to live my life, and yet there I go again. Does campus have an Introspectives Anonymous?
Great post Gali! It definitely is hard to focus on the much more pressing, world-ending issues when exams feel so much more immediate. We often get trapped in the bubble of our own lives and forget that there are other things we should be focussing on. But as you said, there is no definitive way to live your life, so I suppose there is no definitive set of problems a person should care about. I really do wish the latter part of that sentence were true, but if everyone only cared about their problems, the world would surely have come to an end by now.
Philosophers and their never ending positions does feel a bit daunting, and sometimes I do wish for that blissful ignorance, but your post reminded me of the joys of discovering more. The more we learn, the more well-rounded we become. It allows us to seek out and enjoy more experiences, and simply live our life in anyway.
Thank you for the post!
Thank you for the comment. (By the way, the exclamation mark at the end of my name is optional. :)
I’m reminded of the observation that ecosystems with more biodiversity are less likely to collapse. The same thing happens in a mind, of course. It sounds great to form a consistent, cohesive understanding of the world, but cohesive means homogenous, which means brittle. Better to think adaptably than correctly.
Oh wow, I felt like I’ve been stewing on these exact thoughts – you’re definitely with many people globally that feel this way. I was going to offer advice about how to deal with these type of thoughts but I know you’re more than capable of handling this. You’re incredibly smart and I’m glad that you’re on a journey of opening yourself up to emotions of all kinds. Learning to enjoy the growth that comes with listening to your emotions is always a worthwhile exploration. I hope you have a good summer Gali
Thank you for your words; I admire your determination and perspicacity too, and I trust you wouldn’t let your summer be anything but good.
One of the upsides to feeling slightly more neurotic than usual is that not all strong emotions are bad. Student stresses may be unhelpful, but university life has little joys to compensate. So yes, I’m certain I’ll cope. Procrastinating by writing poetry is looking pretty appealing at present.
I really enjoyed this! I often feel guilty for stressing over such minor troubles in my own life while much more significant issues happen around me. I like your conclusion that, ultimately, it can be liberating that there is no one correct way to live life. Thanks 🙂