A fair number of our lectures have had strong links to the topics of racism and colonialism, something that makes a lot of sense given their place as a local conflict in Aotearoa. Admittedly, these lectures likely stand out the most to me because of my lack of connection to war. I don’t have any living relatives who experienced it, and have no clear links to it myself. Aotearoa’s colonial past and present is therefore one of the the most local links to conflict I have.

However, one thing that has been on my mind for the past while is how we handle these topics. The majority of us in the class are white, and, for us Pākehā, racism and colonialism can only really ever exist as abstract concepts. We reap the benefits without having to recognise and face the history and its consequences. It is all too easy to treat these topics as just discussions to be had around a dinner table, but, as Mathevi called me out on, we need to remember that they aren’t the hypotheticals some of us experience them as. 

So, how are we treating the topics of racism, colonialism and their impacts with respect? How are we ensuring that those of us who don’t just experience them as hypotheticals aren’t being ambushed by these topics? I have no idea what it’s like to experience racism, but I know that when someone starts bringing up transphobia out of the blue, it tends to put a real damper on my day. Are we caring enough about how our discussions impact upon all of our us? What can we do to ensure that we are treating these topics with the care they deserve?

I don’t really have an answer to this? I have no idea what others’ experiences in these classes have been like; while I can think of ideas for how we can do better, I’m also not the sort of person who should be answering these questions. As I say, these experiences can only ever exist in a distanced hypothetical for me. But what I do know is that these questions need to be considered all the same.